January'06 recap

What worked and what not

Riding on the wave of new year resolutions, I had started off with a great long list this year. Plans were made, signed up for meetings, and for workshops. The astro predictions popping up on Instagram feed, fed me lot of energies and took me high into the space of expectations.

First few days were “exemplary”! Proper sleep, staying away from social media, the free yoga exercises, journaling every morning, doing creative mini mandalas, reading books, attending book clubs, planning to learn that and this through YouTube, and even picking calls from unknown numbers, because I was trying to say yes to many things I usually don’t. On some days, I could see the fatigue at the door, saying hi, and reminding me to let go and take it slow, but I shut the door unwillingly as I didn’t want to get distracted.

By third and last week, multiple events were happening, and I started losing the concentration. Some tasks remain unchecked. Journaling, creativity and yoga stopped by end of third week. Things didn’t go as planned in some areas by other people (did I really had the control over those things? or am I guilt tripping myself as usual?) and my overthinking horses needed more food. I kept distracting them with scrolling to silence their screams and shouts, but they gave it all back in midnight by disrupting the sleep at odd hours. Do I needed to lose my reins over them, to calm them, or increase my patience to let them cry out and finish their tantrums? Or maybe both?

As January ends, I still can proudly show to others (or to myself?!) that I did embark strongly with a very “good start”. The learning for the months forward is to keep doing the mini productive efforts everyday. Scratch that productive word. That’s the bug. The takeaway is more simple now. To keep doing any mini efforts everyday.

PS: Combining the last two week of January prompts at Write Bravely